Thoughts: 

kek, this actually worked for me, kinda, most of the way XD

except #7 is just a guy I'm just friends with lmao, i dont like him romantically, i just think hes super cool and dorky

I was debating whether to put him OR someone i had a crush on a few months ago

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Honestly, this is more of a diary than a presentation.

You're welcome to read it, though I'm sure you have better things to do, like taking care of your horses!

(11/07/2023) I reached Platinum in League this morning! Then I promptly passed out haha :3 I went to pick up my yarn order from the mailbox and walked over to the postal office to get my new (open box) gaming laptop! I'm pretty excited, but I don't really want to open it yet. Maybe I'll take a look at the yarn, though I don't quite feel like knitting or crocheting

(09/07/2023) It's been a while since my last entry. Nearly a year, huh? It's funny how time passes so fast... I just quit my job yesterday, it was rather emotional. I was walking home after a simple goodbye... I stood in front of my home's door and stopped. I had finally put my thoughts together and willed myself to walk back to work (not that far, just 2 minutes away) to tell my manager how I really felt. I briefly mentioned my depression and how thankful I was (and still am) for everything they've done for me. Just working there gave me a reason to get out of bed, a reason to actually keep myself presentable and clean (I can't possibly NOT shower before work/be relatively clean when working as a cook!! I have morales!!!) Everyone who works there is super kind and friendly. They helped me overcome my fear of men and carried me through depression. I'm still depressed (clinically, not officially diagnosed, but me and many close friends/family have strong reasons to believe I have it) but it's better.
I'll be meeting my long distance boyfriend of two years for the first time next month. I hope it goes well, I'm sure it'll be awkward at first but we'll warm up eventually.
I don't think anything else has happened this past year... Oh, I learnt how to crochet simple mats and cup holders(?) my mom likes gardening and she has a bunch of indoor plants. So I made a bunch of colourful pot covers with cotton yarn. Another thing that happened was... Well, I made my first biggest purchase with my own money last week. Over $1000 CAD! For a gaming laptop! I'll be sure to take great care of it, I'm sure it'll last a long time and be super helpful with college... and my trip haha! My hard earned money... aaaaa
I've been planning to redesign my room. I never really had much of a choice my whole life. All my "choices" and opinions were ignored. I asked for my room to be painted baby pink. My dad insisted I would hate it when I'm older and that I'd thank him for having my room painted lavender purple. That was when I was 8. I'm nearly 20 now and I WANT MY DArrN (edit: da amn is a black listed word whoops) ROOM TO BE PINK!! Still upset about that, but I guess I'll be covering my room with art and posters. I'll be throwing out my bed and my old desk in favour of having a new desk-bunk-bed thing. My room will have so much more space and I'll finally be able to lie down on the floor without having anything obstructing me :)
Anyways, sorry for the long entry. I'm still not sure if anyone really reads these - heck, I don't read them either! Unless I'm down for a memory trip, cringing the further I go back.

This morning I thought of making a pacthesis style dating sim to document my relationship with my boyfriend. Then I realized, huh it's been quite a while since I searched for her. I found her tumblr and surprisingly, she still posts consistently! Lots of cool stuff she's been working on and she's engaged now! I'm genuinely so happy for her, I wish nothing but the best for her. I admire her work, and I can't wait to read her Webtoon. I'm kind of burnt out from reading so many manhwa lately, so her series "Violet Goes To The Beach" I think, will have to wait. If you scroll to the bottom of this, you'll see a Pacthesis sorta thing where I copied and pasted the thing and made it my own. Like this one below!

Listening to: Youtube, The Quick Slice reacting to... uhm, interesting love stories...
Reading: Manhwa, mostly reincarnation action. Not really in the mood for romance
Watching: you sleep at night
Playing: Last week was Zero Sievert (new crush: Arman) now it's Wayward
Eating: Just had a chicken bbq salad from my work place (it was about to be thrown away due to misunderstanding via me and the server)
Drinking: Cheap bubble tea, I get lots of cheap food/stuff/drinks from this app called TooGoodToGo

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(20/08/2022) I did my dailies, and opened the free horn of plenty... I got Tianma. :) anyways, it's three days after my birthday, things have been going really really well aside from League. Never getting gold again, or Plat, or Diamond for that matter.  I don't know why but I'm filled with burning hatred for Rosie and everyone in Falcons who look down on me. I know I'm not the best, but darn it I just got into the game last year and I'm making some pretty good progress unlike them. Sure, I mostly play support, but that just means I'm good at what I do! In fact, even my own boyfriend used to look down on me... Thinking that enchanter supports are dogshit players who anyone with two fingers can play (basically saying it's easy to learn, therefore, easy to have someone just win the game for you - whereas other roles you have to apparently do more work) but in my opinion, it's different things. Think of this like a chocolate company. There is physical labor, where workers make chocolate. There is the financial department, where workers tend to the money and stuff. etc etc. BUT we also need support roles like, janitors and electricians to keep the place running! Sure, anyone can do the job, it's easy to learn. But to do a clean and thorough job, you need to be dedicated and have the right mindset! Can't just do things halfway!! Anyways, enough ranting, I gotta talk with my boi and sleep soon.

(13/01/2022) Currently learning guitar. Just reading tabs and playing a song. My finger tips hurt. But I'm pretty happy with my progress, I think I'll be able to play the easy version of this song by the end of this week fluidly. Oh, and I might get kicked out of the house if I don't clean my room by tomorrow. It's fine, honestly. I've cleaned most of the junk on the ground and finally built my PC for more space! Jin's PC is like, super fast. Hella fast. So fast the page loads before I blink, and that's scary. Other things... Hmm I think everything's fine with [owo ) I'm not writing his name here], I'm really glad I managed to slip past his walls. He keeps telling me I've made him weak, but really, I think most men who are 'tough' are just faking it. I mean, like, not faking it, but just bottling all their emotions and stuff. Toxic masculinity, as they say. I think it's a good thing to let go, everyone's human afterall. Nobody can be always strong (maybe, but not EVERYONE)

(Update: 11/16/2021) Two months ago, a friend grabbed both me and my crush into a group chat so that I'd confess. Since then, we've been happily e-dating and making plans to meet up. I wish I wrote here more, ranting about my love life, it would've been funny to see the development and hopefully happy ending ^^ ) I guess I could scroll through my discord instead haha...

(02/03/2021) Okay, so it's 11:45 PM and I'm cleaning up my presentation. I changed the formats and stuff, added horizontal lines to save space and stuff. I still need to take care of my horses in Alpha5000 and my AP horses. Ugh. I'm not sure why, but lately my whole life has been revolving around Howrse. I wake up, play Howrse, eat, sleep, repeat. Wonderful. But more importantly, I've been spending more time in the CA Howrse server and getting more involved with the community. It's nice to meet new cool peeps and trading with them y'know? I guess I'm feeling pretty low lately, Daft Punk disbanding didn't help much... but hey! At least that made me change my phone wallpaper (lock screen) to Daft Punk! <3